What I Am — текст песни (ninety pound wuss)

develop a taste for portrayal.
see there is a need and see that the need is met.
grasp that there is a hope and find hope to begin again.
look through me, see something in me.
see some good for once.
for it could`ve been worse.
feel my throat swallowing reason and these nerves pushing blood.
anguish, i can`t cope with the notion of what i`ve become.
you say it couldn`t be better.
i say it only gets worse.
i`ll close my mind off.
openness is something so awkward.
i want you to be here now.
your emotions are cold.
this could lead to destruction and it always does.
evidence of a transgretion has be clearly designed.
since step one we`ve exercised guilt as rebellion.
throwing away all that`s substantial.
no longer is there relative reason of permanent existence at all.
what happens when your demands fall through
and power becomes your weakness?
which in turn becomes the doubt i`ve had all along.
i am and i will not function anymore.
this is what i am, this is what i am,
this is what i am, this is what i am.