I`m gonna leave the past alone
I used to have a blast at home
And a cellular phone, now I`m a walking skeletal bone
My stomach`s eating itself because I`m so damn hungry
I`m homeless, just about worthless and stumbly
Cuz I just finished that last bit of Guinness
??? food bitch, mind your own business
Now tend to mine, sometimes I tend to find
A little piece of sandwich somebody left behind
And I`ll eat that the whole day, I beg thee always
Say will work for food, have no place to stay
Starvation has me living on my last chance
I make a fast dash and hit up all the trashcans
If I`m lucky I`ll find a piece of bread, often instead
I like to slash my neck leaving my shirt awfully red
But I can`t put the knife to my neck, my life is a wreck
And I`d shoot myself if I had a rifle or tek
Prolonged death through malnutrition is unbearable
I try to find a job, I`m filthy plus I smell terrible
So nobody wants to pay me, no hottie wants to lay me
I tell the prostitutes to give me head, they disobey me
Maybe, I`ll join the military, join the Navy
But I have no identification and no bravery
So fuck it, I`m just gonna be alcohol`s puppet
Get really drunk, find a tall building and climb up it
And then I`ll jump off, but wait, I`m afraid of heights
I have to turn off my lights some way with no frights
What`s the difference if I go out quietly or with a bang?
There`s a ledge, there`s a rope, guess I might as well hang
But that`s some bullshit because I know it won`t work
What if my neck doesn`t break on the first jerk?
What type of shit is this? I guess I`ll just slit a wrist
But that`s way too slow, and plus, what if the veins missed?
I`ve abandoned all chances of begging and all chances of living
Guess there`s no obvious circumstances of giving
Now if I`m gonna move on of free will
The only way to eat a meal is to rob, steal and kill
But I don`t have it in me and I`m too damn friendly
You`re my enemy because I`m broke and you have plenty
That`s how I justify it in my own mental riot
You`re well fed and I`m about to die from this diet
So you be quiet, and give up all your shit calmly
I`m ornery and I have a rusty screwdriver on me
And if you try to fight then it`s going in your neck quick
I`m a derelict but this is no lunatic rhetoric
So take it seriously and don`t try to screw with me
Don`t get furious or curious, I want your jewelry
Yes all of it, hurry up I`m being tolerant
If I choose to kill you, huh, the police ain`t solving it
Cuz I`m a nobody and nobody is witnessing this robbery
And after I kill you, I`ll kill myself probably
That`s right, I`m gonna kill you now I`m so sorry
But I got all of your money plus the keys to your Ferrari
And that`s all I need I knew that he would fall indeed
Then the cops pulled up while I watched his neck bleed
And they pulled out all their guns at me and yelled Freeze
I put the screwdriver to my throat and fell to my knees
God please, tell me who`s at fault, is it me?
I told the cops I used to be a productive MC
And I signed a record deal with a shady company
Who exploited me and left me homeless without a penny
I was excited, the first label interested
I did what I did cuz I was a foolish young kid
Oh well, if I live, I`m on a road to hell
So I guess this is it, goodbye, farewell
