Have I Mentioned
You`re like that cat
I almost hit with my car
That as much as I hate cats
I had to slam on the brakes
Then
Took one more look around
Realized what I`m doing just isn`t right
That even if no one`s lookin`
I should be a good girl anyway
I was going out
To ride my bike today
But it`s a little too chilly this morning
Wouldn`t you agree?
Besides
I`d just come past
About a couple doaen times
Before you`d look out and see me
And I`d break down and cry
Have I mentioned
I paint my toenails purple still
Your favorite color
Or that I tried
To dye my hair to blond
One time you`d asked me to
Or that I still smoke
Like a chimney
Though you begged me to stop
And here I am
In some strange way
Still trying to change to be your girl.
I won`t change to be your girl
I`m sorry
I called your house today
I wasn`t thinking when it rang 5 times
Then left a message with your mom
Though
I don`t regret it
Not like the nights when we would fight
I`d go out drinking with my friends
You know they like how I dance and sing
Have I mentioned
I wear my dresses longer now
You woulda` liked that
Or that I laid off
The karaoke bars
You always hate when I perform
Or that I drink
Like a fish still
My liver thanks me
And here I am
In some strange way
Still trying to change to be your girl
I won`t change to be your girl
When I`d talk about my big dreams
You`d smile condescendingly
And assure me that one day honey
I`d have to grow up, too
When I`d talk about the future
And you`d decry my age again
And you`d promise me that years of pain
Would make me bitter, too
Have I mentioned
I`m at the big kids table now
You coulda` joined me
Or that the pain
Has made me stronger
I`m really good at bouncing back
Or that Mary Jane still comes to visit
I know you hate her
And here I am
In some strange way
Still trying to change to be your girl
I won`t change to be your girl
I`ll never be your girl again
I`d never change to be your girl.
copyright 2002- Jennifer Rupe
