as we were talking outside it was cold we were shivering yet warmed by
the
subject matter
my wife is in the next room we`ve been having troubles you know please
don`t
tell her or anyone
but I need to talk to somebody
you said Wouldn`t it be a shame if I knew how great I was five
minutes before
I died I`d be filled
with such regret before I took my last breath and I said You`re
willing to
tell me this now
and you`re not going to die any time soon
and I said I haven`t been eating chicken or meat or anything and you
said yes
but you`ve been wearing leather and laughed and said we`re at the top
of the
food chain
and yes you`re still a fine woman I cringed
I was hoping I was hoping we could heal each other
I was hoping I was hoping we could be raw together
we left the restaurant where the head waiter (in his 60`s) said
good-bye sir
thank you for your business sir you`re
successful and established sir and we like the frequency with which
you dine
here sir
and your money and when I walked by they said thank you too dear I
was all
pigtails and cords
and there was a day when I would`ve said something like hey dude I
could buy
and sell this place so kiss it
I too once thought I was owed something
I was hoping I was hoping we could challenge each other
I was hoping I was hoping we could crack each other up
I too thought that when proved wrong I lost somehow
I too once thought life was cruel
It`s a cycle really you think I`m withdrawing and guilt tripping you I
think
you`re insensitive
and I don`t feel heard and I said do you believe we are fundamentally
judgmental? Fundamentally evil?
and you said yes I said I don`t believe in revenge in right or wrong
good or
bad you said
well what about the man that I saw handcuffed in the emergency room
bleeding
after beating his kid
and she threw a shoe at his head.
I think what he did was wrong and I would`ve had a hard time feeling
compassion for him
I had to watch my tone for fear of having you feel judged
I was hoping I was hoping we could dance together
I was hoping I was hoping we could be creamy together
