It was a very cold clear fall night
I had a terrible dream
Billy name and brigid were playing under my stair case
On the second floor about two oclock in the morning
I woke up
Because amos and archie had started barking
That made me very angry
Because I wasnt feeling well and I told them
I was very cross the real me
That they just better remember
What happened to sam the bad cat
That was left at home and got sick and went pussy heaven
It was a very cold clear fall night
Some snowflakes were falling
Gee, it was so beautiful
And so I went to get my camera to take some pictures
And then I was taking the pictures
But the exposure thing wasnt right
And I was going to call fred or gerry
To find out how to get set it
I was too late
And then I remembered they were still probably at dinner
And anyway
I felt really bad and didnt want to talk to anybody
But the snowflakes were so beautiful and real looking
And I really wanted to hold them
And thats when I heard the voices
From down the hall near the stairs
So I got a flashlight
And I was scared and I went out into the hallway
Theres been all kinds of troubles
Lately in the neighborhood
And someones got to bring home the bacon and anyway
There were brigid and billy playing
And under the stair case
Was a little meadow sort of like the park at 23rd street
Where all the young kids go and play frisbee
Gee, that must be fun
Maybe we should do an article on that in the magazine
But theyll just tell me Im stupid and it wont sell
But Ill just hold my ground this time, I mean
Its my magazine, isnt it?
So I was thinking that as the snowflakes fell
And I heard those voices having so much fun
Gee, it would be so great to have some fun
So I called billy
But either he didnt hear me or he didnt want to answer
Which was so strange
Because
Even if I dont like reunions Ive always loved billy
Im so glad hes working
I mean its different than ondine
He keeps touring with those movies
And he doesnt even pay us and the film
I mean the films just going to disintegrate and then what
I mean hes so normal off of drugs
I just dont get it
And then I saw john cale
Hes been looking really great
Hes been coming by the office to exercise with me
Ronnie said I have a muscle
But hes been really mean since he went to aa
I mean what does it mean
When you give up drinking and then youre still so mean
He says Im being lazy but Im not
Im just cant find any ideas
I mean Im just not
Lets face it
Going to get any ideas up at the office
And seeing john made me think of the velvets
And I had been thinking about them
When I was on st. marks place
Going to that new gallery those sweet new kids have opened
But the thought I was old
And then I saw the old dom
The old club where we did our first shows
It was so great
And I dont understand about that velvets first album
I mean I did the cover
I was the producer
And I always see it repackaged
And Ive never gotten a penny from it
How could that be
I should call henry
But it was good seeing john
I did a cover for him
But I did in black and white and he change it to color
It would have been worth more if hed left it my way
But you can never tell any body anything Ive leaned that
I tried calling again to billy and john
They wouldnt recognize me it was like I wasnt there
Why wont they let me in
And then I saw lou
Im so mad at him
Lou reed got married and didnt invite me
I mean is it because he thought Id bring too many people
I dont get it
Could have at least called
I mean hes doing so great
Why doesnt he call me?
I saw him at the mtv show
And he was one row away and he didnt even say hello
I dont get it
You know I hate lou
I really do
He wont even hire us for his videos
And I was proud of him
I was so scared today
There was blood leaking thought my shirt
From those old scars from being shot
And the corset I wear to keep my insides in was hurting
And I did three sets of fifteen pushups
And four sets of ten setups
But then my insides hurt
And I saw drops of blood on my shirt and I remember
The doctors saying I was dead
And then later they had to take blood out of my hand
couse they ran out or veins
But then
All this thinking was making me an old grouch
And you cant do anything anyway so
If they wouldnt let me play with them in my own dream
I was just going to have to make another
And another
And another
Gee, wouldnt it be funny if I died in this dream
Before I could make another one up
And nobody called
And nobody came
