Change — текст песни (Staind)

If ever you had said to me before
That I would live this life that I am
Living now I guess it`s all so strange
To feel the way I do inside but
Have so much that I could feel some
Pride for in my life so why is it that
I feel like this

How do I feel? I`ve been here before,
I`ve felt this
Retreat to a place, a place within me
I need this. Keep it all down, bottled inside
It breaks me to torment again and
Torture me like it used to

I try and try to break away from all the hate
I`m feeling for everyone of you that`s ever
Done me wrong. I need to justify the reasons
For the way I`m living. I guess I can`t cause
I don`t feel like I deserve it

So now the waves they have subsided
And my soul is bleeding I can`t take away
The shame I feel, forgive me