Dead Awake — текст песни (never heard of it)

Today things change i`ve been so fuckin` scared Since i picked up the phone
Trying to escape from me
My heart i can`t think straight
on the beach waves so free
And so calm as a lake
And like me i`m so dead awake

So i hold on to what i got
For as long as I can
But now it`s fallen
Apart in my hand
And it`s so hard to understand
That I can`t see you again

And i hold on to what got
For as long as i can
And now it`s fallen apart in my hand
And it`s so hard to understand

It seems like you`re here with me
I just wanna see you again
Today things change
Why couldn`t it be you
When I picked up the phone
The things i`d say
If i could have known
You won`t be there
When i got home

Looking for answers why
It`s so real it`s not fake
And why am I so dead awake
Please just one more time
I wanna say good-bye
Ill wait for you
I`m not scared
I promise not to cry