I wonder if you can see
I wonder if you can tell
I wonder if you see through the mask I wear so well
Ill never let you know whats going on inside me
My shame locks me down
All the things I wanted tell you
Are all the things I never will
Every time you reached out to me
All I did was push you away
I cant unchain the beast that screams inside me
I hate it, its what I am
It makes me sick to be so mean
What Ive been and what Ive seen
From top to bottom, I am obscene
It stands in my place
It spits in my face
Shame
You smile I smile back
You ask me how I am I say Im fine
I dont know why Im so torn up inside my mind
The darkness swallows me whole
Dont go too deep, dont ask me why
Dont try to know me, dont make me lie
I wish I didnt know the things I know so well
I try to change but its what I am