Take a look at my past, bet you`d wonder how I last
My life is fading right before my eyes, very fast
Reminisin` bout the mother that I never had
She split from all this shit and left me with dad
Goddamn, was it my fault, somethin` I`d done
To make my mother leave and forget her muthafuckin` son
Now I ain`t seen her for thirteen muthafuckin` years
Where the fuck you at mom? I`ve shed so many fuckin` tears
You must not give a damn what the fuck happens to me
What about my older brother, you think that he doesn`t see?
You and dad wasn`t in love, why the fuck am I here?
Am I a mistake? Is that why you disappeared?
Now I`m madder than a muthafucka, take a shot of liquor
I know it ain`t good, but it will get me off this Earth quicker
I wish I could go back and miscarriage my birth
Ain`t nothin` worth livin` for on this hopeless Earth
[Chorus-2x]
Dear momma, reall what the fuck can I say?
I don`t even know you, does it have to be this way?
Don`t a fuckin` minute pass that you ain`t on my mind
Without you in my life, I feel so blind
My father tells me about you, I don`t know if it`s true
He said you never cared for me, so why the fuck should I care for you?
Is it true? Do you hate me? Am I not your child?
If I ever met you, would you be in denial?
Tell me why there`s so much hate between you two
Everytime I ask my dad it falls right back on you
If you wuz never in love, what took so long to find out?
You had my brother four years before I wuz planned out
Life`s just fucked up, this shit just isn`t fair
I don`t even know you and you don`t even fuckin` care
For all I know, you may not even be alive
Goddamn, if you ain`t I won`t even cry
If you are gone I probably won`t feel any anger
My feelings won`t let me cry for a muthafuckin` stranger
[Chorus-2x]
I`m just writin` you this song to let you know how I feel
I play life like it`s a game, but shit is just so real
Now I understand why I just don`t give a fuck
With all this pain in my brain, I feel like I`m stuck
So, I`m smokin` weed and doin` thangs I ain`t supposed to do
Well, it looks to me like I`m takin` right after you
So, momma if you hear me, I ain`t too far
I won`t live long, cuz life is just too hard
[Chorus-4x]
I dedicate this song to my muthafuckin` momma.
To anyone without a momma, y`all know how it feels.
Life`s harder than a muthafucka, exspecially not knowin` your momma.
But keep it real, you gotta keep your head up, that`s my word.
