[Verse 1]
As a child I felt lonely and helpless
Low cash from a neighborhood wealthless
I`ll stick a wino, and rob him for his last penny
Happy days around my way we didn`t find many
Momma said that I was outta line talkin smack
Extension cords to this young nigga`s black back
A juvenile, thirteen, now I`m locked up
Scared to cry, I don`t wanna get fucked up
Fifty push ups a strain on my young chest
I paint the pictures that I pose for a sleeveless
I see my momma only supervised when she cry
She said my baby brother`s comin he aint far behind
Somebody tell me how I ended up like this
I wait for God to give me strength, I`ma fight this
I refuse to bend down cuz I`m young and wild
Do or die that`s this young nigga`s rough style
They`ll never find me
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Searchin to find me [4X]
My soul will be free before they find me
[Verse 2]
I hit the street full grown, momma`s gone now
Had a heart attack I`m living on my own now
My black boots and my state green all I own
And a burning desire for a microphone
I see my little man Tiah bless me wit a burner
Any coincidence I`m feeling like Nat Turner
Twenty stick ups in thirty days they see me comin
Everybody on the block duck and start runnin
A old lady told me baby boy calm down
But like in Vietnam war I got to bomb now
My cash was up a little somethin, somethin, takin shake
I blasted reddie at the weedgate and took his papes
Cuz I done came a long way, in a short time
And I`m willing to die tryin to get mine
Alotta niggas think I`m cool wit `em, guess what
Them niggas in for a shock cuz I`m fucked up
You`ll never find me
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[Verse 3]
I got a little crew now I`m selling weight
White mickeyed out Navigator, tight straight
I got the butter soft seats watch a video
Stag a lee, everybody in the city knows
I make my rounds and I`m checkin how my work`s moving
Shit is picking up nice, life is improving
I got the baddest bird in Brooklyn, she six months
She keep a eye on my whole house, my youngsters
I got my honey on the side she don`t know about
I`m on my way to see her now, I`m a blow her out
I pull up to see her standing in the door waiting
Shorty fine like a porn star masturbating
She said, Daddy are you hungry, would you like to eat
Would you let me rub your back, can I kiss your feet
I told her, Baby make the bed cuz I need rest
She sucked me down until I fell asleep, God bless
I see my momma with my eyes closed, kinda strange
Time to wake up and touch something, outta range
White clouds with the softness I hear the music
What the hell is going on here I`m `bout to lose it
Momma why you talking to me like you right here
She said, Son you outta focus now, come clear
She said, Your life`ll be a milestone for everyone
Because your layin in the bed that you made son
Look how they found me
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