First Verse:
When I was young, I wanted to be man of the house
Have a car, kids, and Vanessa Williams as my spouse
A dog in the yard, to protect the premises
Fuck Good Times, I`m talkin` about some of that Cosby shit
Four bedroom home, white trimmed with green
I`ll be a doctor, regular American dream
I`ll go to college, obtain some knowledge and a degree
I`ll go to Stanford, CSUS, or maybe UCB
Could go to law school, try to pass the bar
I could be a fireman, maybe a movie star
Could play hoops and be the next Mike J.
Gettin` paid for a game I like to play anyway
Man, so many options, which will I choose?
Pursuin` my dreams and I`m willin` to pay dues
Gotta take care of Mama, I`ma buy her a house too
Look out for my sister, the first thing I`ma do
When I`m rich, no more apartments full of roaches
We`ll have the best of everything, at least that`s what I`m hopin`
So in the innocence of youth, I stand strong
As my future unfolds I keep holdin` on
Chorus:
Hold on, never let `em see you shed a tear
My soul`s gone, on the inside I`ve been dead for years
Hold on
Mama, all my love`s for you
So much drama in the World, what`s a thug to do?
(2x)
Second Verse:
Now it`s deep, it`s gettin`, it`s gettin` kinda hectic
Cuz life as an adult ain`t quite what I expected
Bills to pay and mouths to feed
Everybody askin` for what they want, instead of what they need
I thought it would be easy, I was mistaken
Thought my folks would have my back, but they be fakin`
I went to the pen instead of college
Tryin` to have more than a dollar in my wallet
Fucked around and got a girl pregnant
My baby
Won`t be neglected the way my Daddy did me
All of my dreams turned to nightmares
And if I tell you about it, maybe you might care
I got a (???) girl pregnant but she got an abortion
Said I wasn`t disciplined and didn`t have caution
Didn`t want her only child to be fatherless
She told me I would be dead before next autumn hits
I disagree, but maybe she`s right in a sense
Cuz I`m a G until the day they put me in the crypt
No bullshit
Hard livin` got me on one
Until the day I D-I-E I`ma be holdin` on
Standin` strong
Chorus
Third Verse:
Holidays come and go kinda quick in the pen
I got a call from my sister, it`s my birthday again
I barely noticed, deuce-five to life for murder
On Thanksgiving they fed us potato tots and hamburgers
I made my bed, but it`s too hard to be layin` in it
Fightin` the drama, but for some reason I`m stayin` in it
Writin` to Mama, Can your son get a visit?
I`m feelin` a little depressed, can you tell me what is it?
What you suggest? I`m stressed out beyond belief.
So much weight on my chest daily, I`m missin` the streets.
Got me stretched out like a pregnant lady`s belly
X-Raided is stagnated and it`s drivin` me crazy
I created this situation, I know that`s the truth
No father figures in the ghetto, but that ain`t no excuse
Mama excuse my behavior please
Feels like my soul`s gone
Pray for your only son, need to be strong
And hold on
Chorus:
Hold on, never let `em see you shed a tear
My soul`s gone, on the inside I`ve been dead for years
Hold on
Mama, all my love`s for you
So much drama in the World, what`s a thug to do?
Hold on.......shed a tear
My soul`s gone.......dead for years
(No father figures in the ghetto but that ain`t no excuse)
Hold on
Mama, all my love`s for you
(Mama excuse my behavior please, feels like my soul`s gone
pray for your only son cuz you need to be strong)
So much drama in the World, what`s a thug to do?
Stretched out like a pregnant lady`s belly
X-Raided is stagnated and it`s drivin` me crazy
I created this situation, I know that`s the truth
No father figures in the ghetto, but that ain`t no excuse
Mama excuse my behavior please
Feels like soul`s gone
Pray for your only son, need you to be strong, and hold on
