(I am like human…human) (I am like…) Pain Is never pain at all You can never be the same The more you bleed The less you feel And our veins They slowly shift and change And sweep you off your feet Crimson tides abounding
I feel the tablet and I I feel the need to cry Hell I know the blossoms in your eyes I hold the tears that now run dry I hold the terror that you dream of And I believe in sacrifice (For mankind) I stole the wings that make us fly And I dreamt of the pain that makes us lie And I have the power to redeem I’m not just what you think
I can’t be expressed in the primitive vocabulary You fucks try to apply to me What a way to run your freedom What a way to hide Try and reach me Through the ash, bloodshed, and lies
We are decrepit We are defeated We are dehumanized We are your whore
Welcome to the dollhouse Welcome to the landmines of ecstasy We cheat people out of their destiny Because that’s what it means to be free….
A SONG FOR MISFITS
Paint us a picture of shame Hand us an image of fame Try to connect all the same
Build a home For your infants aglow The ones that didn’t make the final cut There they can experience life Without being cut up
Conception tears us apart Masochism’s an art Bang Bang Rattle and hum Sedate as a funeral Dumb Continue to please everyone Slick back your hair Pretend that nobody’s there….
COMA LIGHT
(‘White Christmas’)
Fell in the water What do I see Some kind of heaven falls with me A world full of fate My soul inflates And all my futures were there with me
“Past or present,” they inquire What are you doing here I tell them I don’t know And all my futures engulf me in love Breathe in your future Breathe out stale air
A COLD MORNING
They drove through the streets The other cars had disappeared Along with every care in the world Doors open Curtains undrawn Sheets unfolded Gown put on Scream Breathe Dawn….
TRIBUTE TO THE BROKENHEARTED
Here’s a tribute to man number one There is no place to hide There is no place to run Life was over Before it even had begun So goodbye Man number one
Here’s a tribute to man number two Locked deep within himself Nothing left to do Could never figure out That all lies are untrue So goodbye Man number two
Here’s a tribute to man number three Whirling round in the blender Of opportunity Couldn’t understand What they wanted you to be So goodbye Man number three
Here’s a tribute Here’s a tribute Here’s a tribute To all those Who have lied to find the truth See you soon….
DUST
In the end this is all that remains….
COMA
I don’t need your authority I don’t your power You can’t crack my shell now The embryo is dead
I don’t need your breath around me Crushing every hope while I dream Keep this up A new day has begun The sun also rises The moonlight sings it’s own song….
INTERLUDE
They taught what they could alone Then with guns And sticks And knives Left no moral of the story Forced him to decide What’s the lesson to be learned here Does it please to feel others pain What’s the point in always bleeding No one’s paying attention anyway…
MY HELLS
I’ve been sitting here On your windowsill Waiting for something to happen to me I thought my hell had passed Yet I always knew I couldn’t tread on paths made of broken glass My feet were chafed Trying to make it through I can no longer hold on My smile has died I can’t smile anymore Smile as tears hit the floor Hands don’t tremble with fear No power to move on I thought my hell had passed But now it’s just begun….
(UNTITLED)
I am influenced by those around me I am influenced by those who surround me I am influenced by those around me I am influenced by those who surround me….
VIBRATIONS
The teacher has been breached by the scholar His mind a thousand times weaker Than the decay that has infested And the pain that brings us all down
The bible has been breached by imagination The Vatican unites in syncopation A million trillion people all clapping the same rhythm Jesus save those withthe courage to stop…
FOUNDATION
Cement has been laid A foundation begun Don’t get your feet wet It’s all too easy to leave an imprint Walk through the mind of the innocent….
I WON’T GROW UP (MIDDLE OF JULY)
Are you there Can you hear me Can you feel me Can you breathe Just breathe…. Breathe now…. In out In out In out In out
Hey doctor Whip out that key Crack that lock Set me free Can’t you see I’m awake
Steady beat All I see Looks like some rest Has set you free…
DEALING WITH THE TIDES
The locks and chains Been there so long Left red Where once was flesh of snow One day that harsh red will fade Only a little pink imprint will remain….
FREE
Free Sitting naked in the spotlight Unaware of those around me Can you reach me?
If there’s anyone alive Blowing bubbles with their minds Itching problems from their lives Reach your hands out and touch me
Hey you Falling through the sky With random thoughts And swollen mind I can see you!
As we burn Our bodies produce a living light Nails in my wrist But I can’t die
RED (LULLABY)
Daddy loves you Maybe a little too much Starting to lose his touch Can’t make you scream anymore Cry Tears hit the floor Back is so red Can’t get much redder Covered in bruises Covered in lies No longer sees through your innocent eyes If you dare to rip through his disguise All you will find is bitterness…
Golden Teardrops in your eyes And time goes by as summers die But just believe in you and I And I will sing a lullaby
Stench so sweet it burns a hole In that which once was a whole But just believe in your lost soul And I will keep you warm and full
You I will do anything For you
Night so black it smothers hope Day by day we learn to cope But just hold on to the rope You won’t fall down another slope
You I will sacrifice For you
Life so vague it conquers all Living in a bathroom stall I will answer if you call And I will pad you if you fall…
DON’T LOVE ME
I’m sorry I couldn’t Have made this clearer I function better on my own Make me buy my own food Send me all the bills Throw me out into the blistering cold Maybe if I’d ever seen The world I’m seeing now Life would become a better… Maybe if you’d let me see The world I’ve called my own I could still find a way to… Dad I’m sorry Please don’t hate me Hell don’t love me Please don’t hit me
DO YOU KNOW
Do you know how it feels To be left behind Like I do Do you know what it’s like To be sacrificed Like I do Do you know why we kill Somalian teenagers for fun With our thirteen hundred dollar semi-automatic AK-47 replicas Do you know Why people choose to bleed instead of to die Well I do
Can you tell me what you think about death Have you ever known someone that died That you never knew Like I do
Did you die before your life was through Did you choose to be redeemed Do you know what it’s like To choose not to fight To take the coward’s path To wipe your ass with dumpster trash Hell I do But I know about living too…
TIRED OF CRYING FOR HELP
Still bleak Obsolete Back Black Made me colorblind Ready I am Down or Up or Up high No one gets to feel the pain Rip me out from inside Chosen And Unspoken Just a token Of Mind
Black It’s all black Back I’m still black
Addiction wrenching Compassion flaring Still I’m sharing Broke the chain of dead time It’s still weak and I’m still waiting For another better time
Then insane Another dread Coughed up silence Then I’m dead
It’s black It’s all black Back I’m still black
Black It’s all black Back I’m still black
Beads of sweat along my forehead Broke the silence in my mind Bones are broken Body smoking Heart has spoken I am I am from the window I bring forth a glorious sign Something stopping Me from jumping Me from falling On the outside
Black It’s all black Back I’m still black
Take me back to Tomorrow’s calling Draw me forward to the
Light….
SOLILOQUY
Say goodbye to the memories Say goodbye to the past Say goodbye to the good times Say goodbye to the rest
You’ve lost me Forever There isn’t nothing you can say To change my mind
I’m here Can you feel me Can you hear me Can you see me Cause I’m here I’ll always be here It’s doesn’t really matter If you see me If you feel me I’m always just a breath Across the way
But you’ve lost me Forever Thought you could teach me Never…
THE HEADLINE
How does it feel To be left behind To fight A losing battle Trying hard to tell Wrong from right…
Yesterday the headline Came drenched in blood A million people burning One by one It says the smoke was so thick You could see it for miles
Children were crying Their fathers were dying Someone cried out I thought this could never happen here….
WHERE YOU WANT ME
Here I am Right where you want me Do what you want to me
I’m Dreaming of a white….
Darkness Cloaked I am Silent I hold In my hands
Fear Drives all Pain Stalls Life Churns Death Burns Venomize Satanize Crucify Crucify….
IN DREAMS All I needed Was a sense of direction A sense of someplace to go I do not believe One should devote his life To morbid self-attention But should become a person Like other people I don’t dream anymore….
CIRCULAR OPUS(NORTH)
I sit there quiet little bench watching the cars of Manhattan drive by in a flurry the ocean wasteland is now undone and a warm sea breeze blows through the trees deeper and deeper Till I am surrounded by a deep green hue slacking till death nothing to do
walk through a dream cold and confused hell’s freezing over And I’m easily amused I’m growing older lights going dim don’t have much time left new life to begin
And the light is born…
still in the valley of death and desire I take a break from my journey a quiet vision sings to me sharp as a blender rips off my wings
eyes to the ground death on the wall despair in the air but I stand tall just trudging onward I will not fall I will not fall
And the light is born…
cold as a razor blade dead as a door scrape myself off the floor take some time to leave all behind look over my shoulder what do I find darkness confusion where no one will go lower and lower and lower and lower and out of the distance a glimmer emerges blinding me coma light!
for hours I sit and stare into the void trying hard to ignore the hand on my shoulder the knife in my back I have returned the child is back programmed just to hear guilty lies branded for life with those angel dust eyes and the lies become…
It’s real It’s here It’s now
then in a crash of day dreams and light the clutter on my path Gives in to the night I step forward To leave all behind Over and older I’m losing my old mind
and the light dies down
our father who art in heaven hallowed be thy name thy kingdom come thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven give us this day our daily bread
It this my destiny take a look around And what do I see Nose on the ground Eyes on the floor What the hell is all of this for? Up, down, up, down, up, down, up, down In, out, in, out, in, out, in, out
And forgive all our trespasses As we forgive those Who trespass against us And lead us not into temptation But deliver us from evil
Why is everyone praying to me I’m just REAL How can this be? Hell will take it’s stand In a billion different faces A trillion different races All together Smiling places
For thine is the kingdom and The power The glory Forever and ever And ever And ever
I’ll give you what you want In every dying ember Is this the day you’ll see me fall Never….
A BRIEF LECTURE ON FASCISM
The beneficent The merciful Your name to be Exalted And adored Be lamps unto yourself Yourself
I am a transmitter And not a creator I believe in And have a passion For what is ancient Thereby I swear by the mountain And that which has been written And the house with the canopy And the overflowing sea When greatness is forgotten Punishment will come to pass
On the day when the mountains pass away passing away The day when all who reject are pushed away….
THE SON
We are tomorrow We disregard today Your ignorance and insolence For this you soon will pay We are the influential You want to have control You strive for limits Starve for power
But it’s not too becoming To demand that we conform Where’s the individuality It helps if we are Who we want to be Not just Hitler Youth With all the same philosophies
We’re slowly becoming Those we curse And those we hate Those who rape our minds Until we fade away Can’t you understand We are not toys for you to burn The fire will sleep someday But We will return
The coming of the new America Where everyone’s the same Society burns us Can you take away the pain
Just sell us more tobacco And mark us all to die Governmental crack you see Has ruined all our lives
I am the son We are the daughters of today And if the rites fall like they should You soon will pay You take advantage of our youth We’ll take advantage of your crusade Burns Scars Pain….
DEEP
Minds like toys But I can’t afford one Gonna be ripped Shred and torn If it can burn Fire is there For ever more Grim and waiting A toy well worth taking Overjoyed that I can feel it Hear it Breathe it Run away it’s all gonna go Where can I move When it all starts to blow…
FATHER
Why have you forsaken me? Have I become to strong? Where are you now? I miss your love
Why have you forsaken me Broke off from right and wrong I gave you everything Is this how you repay me?
How?
Oh fuck you! It’s always YOU I don’t need you anyway…
YOU
You Life on paper Getting lonely Getting cold Getting wasted Getting tired Getting younger Getting old
You Face covered will false hopes Wishing you could be someone else Someplace else
Maybe tomorrow you can wake up And I can cradle you in my arms Slowly nurse the color from your cheeks And warmth from your hands…
THREE MINUTES AND TWENTY SEVEN SECONDS OF SILENCE (BEER SHORTAGE DILEMMA #63)
LIVING A LIE
Hush now don’t you cry I’m gonna rock you still now Through the night Stuck here living through a lie Waiting to die I’ve come to cry Watching from what little depth I’ve retained Watching all the world pass by my eyes Once I could’ve absorbed Everything Now that I can have nothing I see what I always wanted To see…
AMID THE CHAOS AND RUBBLE
maybe in the end when all stand tall what’s written on the wall won’t mean a thing not at all…
END OF THE ROAD
Have you ever watched it all hit the ground That which you held so tight Screamed until your breath burned out Felt pain from day to night I’ve pulled angels from up high Held them down watched them drown
Heard a voice once calling out my name I looked through different eyes seen things just the same My presence here was pointless I never made a scratch but still The moon shines bright upon my face The stars seem so out of place
I am held down by hate That which I could never be Heavy chains of tribulation I can NOT BREAK FREE
My voice will always penetrate The calling that I hear Telling me to lead the children near
I want to love I want the strength to carry on The power to know right from wrong And the right to never belong
I walk alone through streets made of flesh and bone I hold my battered head in disbelief I am a thief
Our minds we do not own Our eyes see only what we want to hold I will let this candle burn Yet the light I hope to be remembered there can be no darkness Through the power we have rendered Walk the sky To think and feel and love Cry your tears if you must But hold my hand and walk a billion strong…
COMATOSE RAINBOW Comatose Rainbow Comatose night Comatose dreams Comatose lives
Comatose falsehoods (And) Comatose eyes Comatose skyline They were all comatose lies
(I am) comatose blinded (By you) comatose coma light You have opened a window You have shown me to the night
Comatose bleeding (Through a) Comatose fight (I am) comatose dying (Losing) comatose sight
Comatose feeling Comatose there’s no meaning (I am) comatose healing Comatose one last fleeting chance
Comatose heartbeat Comatose tonight Comatose where we end I am frail in the spotlight
Comatose forever Comatose one last vow Comatose deliver me Comatose now….
WASTED
I`m sorry I made you believe That you meant something To me I’m sorry For wanting to fall But it’s too late To regain control I’ve lost it all
I’ve lost the will to carry on My tears have run dry I can no longer cry Death never looked so good Bracing my battered body Waiting for the final fall
Happiness is so untouchable now My breath leaves my body but words don’t form I’m floating slowly Sinking quickly Gone
This is My one last chance To conform Winding down the slippery slope Of emptiness Never to be found You wasted opportunity You left your life Lay low for far too long Never going nowhere Trying to find somewhere A home A place to call your own….
IN SILENCE
In silence Lying on his back Hardly moving Never looking back Or up
In silence I lay Skin soaked in silent rage Heart loaded with different pains Mind works in different ways The streets beckoned But he couldn’t give in Anymore
In anguish delayed Body submits to fate Crumbles away….
In the end this is all that remains.
ENCORE
Here’s a tribute to man number four You’re leaving town now Walking out the door God only knows what’s in store So goodbye…man number four
CRUCIFIXION
Well fuck kids You can try this at home Just make sure the nails Aren’t rusted.
