By The Time You Read This — текст песни (If Hope Dies)

I`m leaving right now, not for another moment.
Can I stand to bear the weight of your eyes upon me.
There`s a weight that pressing on my shoulders.
Each step away takes so much effort.
But when you turn around next I still won`t be there.
I`ve managed to kid myself about who I am.
For such a long time.
And about how you may have felt.
It`s still hard to put into words.
Just how much you mean to me.

Those wonderful nights just seem so far away now.
I can look into the sky.
And almost see them, out there between the stars.
Of course I know you don`t even see that much at all.
So when you look back I`ll be gone,
and you won`t have missed a thing.

Maybe this is better.
Because I`d rather you not see this.
How I`d scream at these walls.
Until I can`t speak your name again.

I`ve managed to kid myself about who I am.
For such a long time.
And about how you may have felt.
It`s still hard to put into words.
Just how much you mean to me.

I`ll be gone when you turn around.
You`ll only see the same empty space.
The space that we both shared.
This those memories that you`ve forgotten.
And I`ll be running; I`ll keep on running.
Because I`m leaving for good.
I won`t be looking back, no I won`t.

Running forward into the night.
I`ll let it swallow me whole.
Maybe you`ll hear me in the wind.
But then it will be too late.
To say goodbye.

Goodbye.