Wish I was too dead to cry
A self affliction face
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochist to which I cater
You dont need to bother
I dont need to be
Ill keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I wont let go till it bleeds
Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason
My thoughts are open season
For this I gave up trying
One good time deserves my dying
You dont need to bother
I dont need to be
Ill keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I wont let go till it bleeds
Wish Id died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shelf forgotten with its memories
Diaries left with cryptic entries
And you dont need to bother
I dont need to be
Ill keep slipping farther
But once I hold on
I wont let go till it bleeds
You dont need to bother
I dont need to be, yeah
Ill keep slipping farther
But once I hold on, once I hold on
Ill never live down my disease