As I continue to try to free myself. 
I`m restrained by my own vice. 
A most surprising weakness. 
That`s so hard to identify. 
Thinking back upon myself. 
I often chose without much thought 
Much more is of consequence. 
Pure pleasure or from the heart. 
Just another addiction. 
Will I ever gain control. 
Or will I make the same mistakes. 
Confusing love and physical lust. 
I continue to let it trap me. 
Restrained... By my own actions 
Restrained... without emotion. 
Another aspect of control. Another time I`ve been deceived. 
Another choice. That got the best of me. 
Broken promises. For moments of a false emotion. 
Broken promises. Never again.