Kept my heart locked away / kept it far away from me
Found a place by the river where nobody goes
Buried far beneath the levee
Places where I used to go / when it rained, my heart went deeper
Deep blue underneath the sea / washed away for no one to see
I dont have the feelings Im supposed to know
I dont get the feeling that you understand
Only get the feeling that youre feeling sorry for me
Thats never been the point of what Ive said
Never really knew what love was / mixed it up with other thoughts
Growing up alone doesnt help one sort it out
Even when youre here, youre not
Never learned to trust another person
Never knew a person who could understand my words
Why I chose to share them, I will never know, but knowing
No one took the time to understand
Do I want forgiveness, or the thrill of maybe knowing
I could change direction, never caring where Im going
Sometimes all the time it takes to make your destination
Isnt charted out as clearly as it seems
Now the smell of vaporub comes over me
All the shame of weakness builds again
Rules and expectations I cant follow any more
I became the person that I am
Wouldnt want to make you think you havent found a way to me
Its only that its not as simple as it seems to be