Jaded — текст песни (blood for blood)

This is my rat race
I`m alone and lost to this world
Happiness is something I can`t afford
Thoughts of what could have been never entered
my mind cause there`s nothing there when I began
I tried to fit in but failed
Like a speeding train I`ve derailed
I`ve gone down the useless path that`s only heading
for the sacred nowhere land
Don`t want to see you smile
Jealousy and envy boils inside my head
The pressures of life have tripled since I became a fuckin man
Don`t feel whole inside
I`m alone
Better of if I had died
I`m alone
I raise my hands to the sky
I`m alone
And ask god why am I still alive
Lady luck turned her back on me
I`m alone
Opportunity never knocked on my door
I`m alone
Then you wonder and ask me why I`m so jaded and angry
I`m alone
I`m alone
I`m alone
Never needed anyone
I`m alone
I`m alone
I`m alone
I accept my destiny
Being ignored has spurned in me
Contempt for anyone that I see
There`s no cure for what I`ve got
I`ve tried and fight but the pin is nonstop
I`d isolate myself but necessity had locked me in
It`s like a fuckin sin
It`s here where I belong and where I`ve always been
Don`t feel whole inside
I`m alone
Better of if I had died
I`m alone
I raise my hands to the sky
I`m alone
And ask god why am I still alive
Lady luck turned her back on me
I`m alone
Opportunity never knocked on my door
I`m alone
Then you wonder and ask me why I`m so jaded and angry
I`m alone
I`m alone
I`m alone
Never needed anyone
I`m alone
I`m alone
I`m alone
I accept my destiny