through it all and in the end, i find that it`s easier to break than it is to bend because its hard enough when you say that you`ll fucking say it anyway. with a set-up like that, you know you aren`t in for a punchline because this won`t be a joke and words thrown from the lips will leave you broken. and maybe being strong is the right thing to be but i`ve always been a little girl about things and being weak has always been a good excuse for substance abuse. and i`ve found that everyone has every good goddamn reason in the world to have a drink once in a while. and i know that i`ve had all of the fun in the world dulling everything out and sinking into the haze of the shattered. and sinking into the haze of the addicted.