Push me out from the darkness
To a sky that`s colored blue
Somewhere someone`s finding happiness
While I`m still here so hung up on you
Nothing is real
And I want you to know
That I`m not alright
When you tear open my chest
I`ll try not to flinch
Won`t make promises
You taught me that I`m still losing what`s left out
My self esteem
And I`m still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams
The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most
So I`ll bite my tongue til it bleeds and I doubt you`ll even know
The easiest thing to fake`s a feeling to fool someone else
And I`ve been tricked for so long by you
that I spent these last few months in my own hell
A failed apology
A day too late but now I see
That all you really want`s to see me dangle neck first from a tree
But what would you need me for
You`ve got friends galore
And all you`ll ever be to me`s a stupid lying excuse for a person
I could call
But I know that you won`t be there to pick up the phone
You don`t have time for me
I could call but I know you won`t get the phone
Don`t have time for me
I hate myself
For loving you like this
I hate myself for hating myself
Just enough to love you
Just enough to love you