Spent the last years
in denial of my grief
because you hated me
anyone could see
i`ll always wonder
what I meant to you
and why you hated me
what i did to you
i can`t get anywhere
pretending i don`t care
lying to everyone i see
when the only thing i needed was
one more day like yesterday
i`d pick you up, you`d put me down
wish you were still around
for one more day like yesterday
with you
and in the end
we didn`t have a thing to say
still those games you play
then you passed away
i`ll always wonder
why you had to leave
why you hated me
then laid the blame on me
cold antiseptic stares
the smell of the sickroom air
yeah, i let you go down there
the only child
who never cared about
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i`ll always wonder
if i could have meant more to you
i`ll always wonder
if i could have done more for you
how i could just turn my back
how i could just walk away
how i could just close my eyes
and watch you die
we never got along
we never got a chance
to sing our song of love
i loved my daddy boy
did you love your boy?
oh, you feel so warm to me now
but it`s cold in this room
tomorrow they`ll put you in the ground
then there`s nothing i can
ever do to have
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