Disorder — текст песни (Goldfinger)

My little story`s
growing way too long
i`ve had to suffer
enough to write this song
and if i get the chance
i`ll tell you how it feels
cause in this sick old head
the pain is way to real
so i fall down
i don`t know
if i can make it up this time

I know i want to but it gets
harder every time
and if it`s easier
to give up everything
i`d give it all to you
to relieve half this pain

cause it`s been hard
yeah it`s been hard

i sit there at the bar
i wonder what i`ve done
should i just fuck it all

or should i
go back home
cause if i take that drink
i might as well just die
and if i kill myself
i`d be giving up my try